….SwItBaByCmE…..

I was only seventeen on a hot April day of 1987.  I couldn’t take my eyes of off this gift from God.  He was my gem given to me from heaven and I felt so blessed.  Blessed with my son whom I named Russell Vohn Garcia Calazan.  From this day forward my life has changed.  I know I took good care him the most precious way I could have done. I don’t regret anything that I have done for my son.  Having him in my life renewed me in so many ways.  I always carried him, cuddled him in my arms and kissed him every moment that I had and I am so glad that I did because he was my baby then and he will always be.  My son taught me how to live my life accordingly.  At my early age, he taught me how to be strong, responsible and how to stand up for myself and for us as a family. He taught me how to set my dreams and fulfill them. He taught me how to learn household choirs, he had showed me how to love more than you can imagine but most and foremost, he taught me how to be a parent, how to be MOM.

A MOM is believed to be the hardest job ever.  There is no book or instructions on how to become one or neither to make it perfect nor to be a perfect one.  That’s why through my son, I believe I became and learned all of what I know now as a MOM.  Days, years did flew by and now he was so grown up that I can hardly hug and cuddle him. He is so grown up that he had his own ways in life own life but still listened and came home to me.  I thank him so much to be such a supportive son, loving, although quiet at times yet very opinionated and easy to approach.  He has questioned me a lot of times as to why I live my life this way but yet understood me and still stood by my side.  He was my protector, our protector.   He was never a burden to me and I am so proud of him and all of this was proven during his last days, he made me even proud when I found out that he has touched lives of so many other people.  I am so proud of you Vohn-vohn and I will always be.  Wish we had more time together so I can see your kids grow up and take care of them as well as I took good care of you.  Vohn-Vohn, always remember YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME and I am so glad that I was able to tell you this before God took you away from me.  Now you are in a different phase for he has some other plans for you as they say which I wish I had a hint as to what they were so it will be a lot easier for me to get by this.  I didn’t want it to be this soon but what could I have done against the one who lend you to me.  HE was the one that knew it all, when the moment would have come.  I just wished I was able to tell you for one last time how much I love you but I was not given the chance. But I happy in a way that I still had that chance to hug you for one last time the Thursday night before all of this happened.  And that was it.  Please even though you are in a different place now I hope you still watch over us and be our guardian angel until we all meet again.  I love you Vohn vohn and I will surely miss you but I will never forget you.

FOREVER

Now, while we’re here alone

And all is said and done

Now I can let you know

Because of all you’ve shown

I’ve grown enough to tell you

You’ll always be inside of me

How many roads have gone by

So many words left unspoken

I needed to be by your side If only to hold you

Forever in my heart

Forever we will be

And even when I’m gone

You’ll be here in me Forever

Once, I dreamed that you were gone

I cried out trying to find you

I begged the dream to fade away And please awaken me

But night took a hold of my heart

And left me with no one to follow

The love that I lost to the dark

I’ll always remember

Forever in my heart

Forever we will be

And know that when I’m gone

You’ll be here in me

Forever in my heart

You always thought I’d be

I’d be yours………………….. Forever

sa malayung lugar di ko inasahan

isang binibini melissa ang ngalan

larawan ng lungkot saya’t may kagalingan

di ko lubos maiisip may taglay na kahinaan

sa pagiibig pala’y marupok pa kung minsan

sadyang binigay ng hanging amihan isang lalaki siya’y si superman

nais nyang arukin tunay na iniirog

dyan lang pala sa internet puso’y nahuhubog

mistulang banal maging sino ka man

kapag dikta ng damdamin wlang hahadlang

sa maginoo’t marikit wala ng urungan

sa tibok ng puso lalong naninindigan

sundin ang pagibig kapag may katwiran

sana’y wag madapa baka mo pagsisihan

kailangan magsama sa hirap man o ginhawa

ang tunay na damdamin sa yong ginigiliw

di kayang sukatin hanagang san man abutin

pakaisiping mabuti ang liwanag ng damdamin

baka bukas makalawa madilim na suliranin

masaktan kang lubusan sa yong iibigin

panalangin kong lagi sa aking katoto

wag masyadong madahas sa silakbo ng damdamin

ang puso mo giliw katulad ng larawan

sa malinaw man o malabo ingat sa silakbo

sadyang darating sa iyo ang tunay na pagibig

kung talagang iingatan ang puso mo

kakamtan ang ligaya kahit sa isipan

mahaba man o maiksi ang tula ko sa lakambini

pero sa pagibig kamayan lang wagas isusukli

magiiwan ng alaala sa sinumang makadiskubri

di mabubura, ito’y maitatala! sa susunod na lahi nitong si melissa!!!!!!

" True love comes from the soul, in the depths of one’s true self. The true person is brought out in this love but only seen by the ones who truly love them."

                                                      — Taylor L. —

Love is not getting, but giving. Not a wild dream of pleasure and a madness of desire–oh, no–love is not that! It is goodness and honor and peace and pure living. Yes, love is that and it is the best thing in the world and the thing that lives the longest."

                                    — Henry van Dyke  —

“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, “I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.” You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

                                               –Eleanor Roosevelt–

"You are in charge of your feelings, beliefs, and actions. And you teach others how to behave toward you. While you cannot change other people, you can influence them through your own behaviors and actions. By being a living role model of what you want to receive from others, you create more of what you want in your life."

                                             —Eric Allenbaugh—

"There are two great rules of life, the one general and the other particular. The first is that everyone can, in the end, get what he wants if he only tries. This is the general rule. The particular rule is that every individual is more or less an exception to the general rule."

                                     — Samuel Butler —

"Believing in yourself is not for you; it’s for every person who has touched your life in a significant way and for every person your life will touch the same way five minutes from now, or five centuries from now."

                                             —  Jaye Miller  —

                 "If you judge people, you have no time to love them."                                                   

                                                       – Mother Teresa – 

When you are happy,

I’ll love you with a joyful heart.

When you are sad,

I’ll love you with a heart mad a little heavier by your tears.

When you are right,

I’ll love you with a heart filled with pride.

When you are wrong,

I’ll love you with a heart that has learned acceptance.

When you succeed,

I’ll love you with a cheering heart.

When you fail,

I’ll love you with a heart that rewards the efforts you’ve made.

When you dream,

I’ll love you with an encouraging heart.

When you give up,

I’ll love you with a heart that is strong enough for both of us.

When you are simply you,

In whatever mood or phase of your life,

I’ll love you with all my heart and more than you’ll ever know!

When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won’t
compromise what’s in my heart.

It means I live my life
MY way.
It means I won’t allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone’s maid, or when I act a little selfish.

It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won’t become anyone else’s idea of what they think I "should" be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won’t succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch,
so be it. I embrace the title and
am proud to bear it.


B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman

B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything

"Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places. They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner’s mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful. ………………..This could be me   

M is for mystique, that “something” we can’t explain

E is for energy that won’t be contained

L is for laughter, the merriment I share

I is for intelligent choices I’ll make

S is for striving to achieve what I crave

S is for shining example I maintain

A is for ability, the skills I had obtained.

Whenever we’re apartand I am feeling all alone,I close my eyes and think ofall the happiness we’ve known…I think of how your loving smileis such a precious sight,And how your arms around mefeel so comforting and right.I think of how I’m free to bemyself when I’m with you,And how you makeso much in lifeseem wonderful and new…And somehow,I feel better then,because I clearly see,Since I hold you closewithin my heart,you’re always here with me.I LOVE YOU!!UOY EVOL I

  Through the net I had met

A guy who seemed so content

In a small big room he was my knight

Fooling around as I laid my sight

Seconds minutes hours went by

Of me waiting when to say hi

I’ve always wanted to take a peek

Of those “damn” irresistible lips

His sweet talking thoughtfulness and caring

Had pulled me more towards his attention

For me I thought everything was fine

So I gave in and returned those feelings

Brought by thrills and excitement

Plans were placed in the relationship

But then along came another interest

Because of this I’m going through some hardships

I got hooked on what is called chat

As days went on I took of my hat

Being vulnerable, I opened my heart

Not knowing that I’ll get hurt

Across the miles is very tough

This had caused me to have doubts

Because through months I’ve had enough

But still I don’t know what route

My Superman He’ll always be

I just wish I’d be his baby